The sores I am dealing with have taken a turn for the worse so I am headed for an emergency appointment with my proctologist on Monday August 31st at 3 pm in Beverly Hills. This is scary stuff and might require surgery or hospitalization. I will know more soon. On another note since April, I have been working with someone to deal with all this stress and anxiety of my struggle and also to clarify what I need and want out of the second half of my life. I had a big breakthrough this week which also made something my dear second mom Sally told me make sense. I processed what I need, want and most importantly deserve in the next half of my life. The ladylove I need and want is someone who can make me feel like a priority in her life. A relationship much like my sister and brother in law. They spend most of their free time together because they make each other happy and fulfilled they fit together and compliment each other completely. That is exactly the kind of ladylove I both want and need, particularly one who can help to share my creative passions. Now it makes sense when Sally said that I need someone willing to sacrifice and support me in reaching my goals and who will help me have a much better life. No matter how strong and independent I am, I need someone who brings clear cut joy to my heart not confusion and mystery. Someone I can count on to be a consistent part of my life. I will find her and I will be blissfully happy. I want someone open hearted who looks at me with yearning and desire and love. I want that head over heels feeling with love and support like I have never had before. Someone is out there who will be everything I have ever dreamed of who is happiest when she is with me.
Month: August 2015
The Truth Of Who I Am!
I have had to become strong willed and intense to survive and get through all my recent health struggles which are not over yet. Some will not like this side of me but those who can see my heart will admire me. At my deepest core I have always been very sentimental, emotional, and a dreamer at heart and more than anything I want to end up with a woman who can see inside my spirit and she values, appreciates and cherishes my dreamer nature and wants to be my lover and spend time with me. Someone whose energy is in sync with mine and believes great things are coming for me and her as well. Someone who wants to help me reach for more in my life.
I Will Get This in October!
October 20th the trilogy is complete. I will get it in ITunes!
The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies Extended Edition Comes to Blu-ray and Digital HD
A Well Executed Meeting!
My meeting with housing officials went very well this afternoon. Now it is just a matter of following up at the appropriate time and waiting to see what happens. I can feel great things are coming!
I Need A Little Magic!
This afternoon, August 25th, I have a very important and critical meeting with some officials which I deeply hope will lead to an excellent new place to call home! I need some magic from the universe so I am sending a prayer to my spirit guides to bring me a modern and new place to live. A two bedroom with lots of natural light from windows, light hardwood floors, stainless steel appliances, with direct TV or anything but Charter cable, in a walkable and safe neighborhood close to shopping, movies, and food would be my dream apartment and make me much happier! I pray for help from the universe and my guides.
Still Yearning!
These are still the traits I seek in my twin flame or soulmate no matter what sign! I want to feel appreciated and loved with warmth, passion and desire like I am the center of someone’s world. Someone whose energy is in sync and complimentary to mine and supportive of my dreams like I have never had! Someone who speaks from the heart with no mind games and treasures my mind, spirit, and direct communication and my truth. Someone I can totally be myself with.
A Really Great Movie!
My Mom and I watched this last night. It is called The Rewrite….quite good!
An Important Conversation And Center Of My World!
My mom and I had an important conversation this weekend. It was such a relief to find that my mom totally understands and accepts that I don’t want to have children after all that I have been through and all the challenges that I face. She just wants me to be healthy, happy, comfortable and safe. My heart knows the kind of woman that it yearns for. Someone who is deeply attracted to my mind and spiritual philosophy as well as my direct communication style. Someone who wants to be the center of my world and light of my life. Someone who shares my career and life goals. Someone that understands my emotional background and lets me be myself with no manipulation. An old soul who is sexy with a mature spirit even if she is younger than me. I will create my blissful life.
A Big Itunes Wish For My Favorite Show!
One of my favorite TV shows is Sons of Anarchy. I plan on owning ALL the seasons in HD on ITunes. I already own season 7 but I need to get 1-6. I just noticed that all the seasons are marked down on ITunes from $30 each or more down to $19.99 each for a limited time! I swear if I had the money or a gift card or electronic gift card, I would finish off my series collection in a heartbeat! GRRR I hate having to struggle for the simple pleasures of life. We’re talking $120! Oh well, I know I will be successful, comfortable and happy once I get healthy!
https://itunes.apple.com/us/tv-season/sons-of-anarchy-season-1/id289274652
https://itunes.apple.com/us/tv-season/sons-of-anarchy-season-2/id328072901
https://itunes.apple.com/us/tv-season/sons-of-anarchy-season-3/id387387176
https://itunes.apple.com/us/tv-season/sons-of-anarchy-season-4/id457178246
https://itunes.apple.com/us/tv-season/sons-of-anarchy-season-5/id555844731
https://itunes.apple.com/us/tv-season/sons-of-anarchy-season-6/id688503936
The End Of My Rope!
On September 1st I start physical therapy to break up scar tissue from my last surgery. But the sores on my bottom are getting worse so I have to find a way to heal so I can sleep at night. Maybe these will help.
http://www.olympiamc.com/CenterWoundMgmt_HyperbaricMed/
http://beverlyhillshyperbaric.com/index.html
I won’t stop fighting until I have the home, health, career, life and lover that I have yearned to have for many years.
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